For You, my King.

I'm really sick of having to pretend like nothing has gone wrong, when I feel so confused deep inside. I'm not going to try to clear my name, because like what I've said, I really don't want to dwell in the past anymore. It's everything, or Nothing.

I'm so tired.

Running after kids can be such an exhausting business, but I loved every moment of it. Didn't even matter that I missed dinner, just sitting down on the grass & watching the kids play made me really happy (: I don't want to say much, but Caleb, especially, he really made my day, & God actually made me learn something from Caleb today.

Thank you Lord for speaking to me, I know You love me & I love You too.

Where are we heading?

& I really wonder if
I'd ever have the chance to look at myself in your eyes, again

I promise, Dennis & David are the best "partners" anyone could have, Flag Day didn't exactly suck because with the both of them around, time just simply flew by. All I had to do was just to stand there & say "thank you", while the guys did everything else (: ahhhh thank God for the very wonderful classmates I have.

Went for ACJC Funfair today, my my the crowd was !!!! & the weather was !!!! While queueing for cottoncandy I saw a familiar guy in a yellow shirt & I was thinking to myself, hmmm who's that guy over there...

Turned out to be Joel, who's back from Tioman & with a new tan!

So anyhoooo. I finally returned Terrence his albums. "Stacy right? So my CDs were with you! No wonder I couldn't find them!" he said. Oops.

& obviously I didn't have enough. About half an hour later I went for another cottoncandy. So erm well you can picture how high I actually got.

That aside, today's message would definitely be one I'll never forget (: it really spoke to me & I seriously felt Someone knocking at the door of my heart. God's love never fails.

Darren actually forgot he was supposed to meet me today, that idiot I hope he falls from his skateboard & breaks his leg.

Justus Sim came all the way to the North to meet up with me. Very happy.



Shawty had them apple bottom jeans (jeans)
Boots with the fur (with the fur)
The whole club was looking at her
She hits the floor (she hits the floor)
Next thing you know
Shawty got low, low, low, low, low, low, low, low
Okay okay I know, it's just that the song is still kind of stuck in my head.

Oh no this is nothing like Step Up, storyline's worlds apart. Quite worth the money (to me), but the plot was almost irrelevant, if you're going to watch the show you're probably only going to pay to see the talented dancers & their moves. & oh hottie alert.

I miss dancing. Like seriously. I can't remember why I actually left MDH, maybe at that point of time the whole club was kind of "aimless" to me. I really wonder where are the days when I'd get myself & my ass into the hottest stuffs that's going on & owned the dancefloors together with my rockers.

Now if only I had say, 30 hours a day...

My darn CIP is really getting in the way, I hope I'd have time to make it for ACJC funfair tomorrow. Probably dropping by to say hi to Darren (he makes a really lousy role model) & return Terrence his cds, I think his Yellowcard & Good Charlotte albums have been with me for like, 10 months. When I told Joel that Darren had asked me to ask him if he's going for the fair tomorrow, he was like how'd you know Darren! I'm like ermmmm.

Ahhhh shucks would you look at the time. I've to be in school by 830! Suck it.

Now baby let's turn away.

Blogger was being a really annoying little thing yesterday.

The older brother is finally back from Tioman! That aside & on a totally irrelevant note, I spent !!!! alot on a notebook yesterday. Actually I really have no use for it, I only bought it because it was orange & it had a rather, erm, significant number on the cover. Now shut up I know you're just about to give me a lecture on wasting $$$$.

I love gossiping (heehee.) I love gossiping even more when it's with people like Fiona & Meiqi & Huiying & Niegel & David & Cheewah & Desmond & Larry. You'll never be able to believe the nonsense that the guys can come up with. Like seriously. Yesterday during class we sat in one circle & started to talk about erm, you know, the-usual-stuff-&-maybe-something-new-too. Treated the teacher as if he was invisible but I think he couldn't be bothered either. I love my classmates, seriously.

The weather has been so crazy I really wonder what the hell is wrong with it. Freak thunderstorm today totally freaked me out, you should've seen how Fiona was laughing & trying to scare me everytime I covered my ears. I didn't even feel like staying around so we ended up borrowing an umbrella from her netball teacher & today is the very last time I'm going to let Fiona hold a freaking umbrella, nearly half of my body was completely drenched & no it wasn't because of the umbrella, it definitely had room for 2.

I wonder if I should go for ACJC fair this Saturday. Whyyyy does my CIP have to be on that day!

Darren: CIP? That really sucks.
Stacy: Okay okay I know stop reminding me about it.
Darren: So are you going to go to like Orchard or something & sell stickers? HAHA
Stacy: !!!! Shut up.

I hope Darren isn't as retarded as erm, Joel. Well seeing the fact that the both of them are in the same clique... (They even type alike, I promise. Shit scary.)

Desmond See loves pork chop. Inside joke.

Over at Fiona's now, she says she's hungry but is too lazy to cook herself some instant noodles. I wonder, what on earth she meant by that.

Received a call from Justus Sim while I was on the way to Priscilla's place yesterday, so nice of him to go looking for a phone to holler me from Tioman (: wonder what those jokes are doing over there now. I hope it's raining (hahah.)

I love slacking at Priscilla's place. Erm or maybe mugging. Steph & I did quite a fair bit of Chemistry, so I guess I'm quite proud of myself. Yay. & oh when we were in her room, there was this huge thick file that was quite innocently laying beside me, but later Pris said that it was the amount of Chemistry nonsense they had to complete in one year. Upon hearing that, I mentally struck off the option, JC.

You'd never, never, never, believe the size of that file & the @!$^*&*# amount of papers that was in it.

On a random note, Steph & I saw a photograph of Philip smiling, & he actually said that his family forced him to smile, but I was like erm, Philip you know, you look genuinely happy.

I promise I'm not lying, he really did look happy! It was one of those, huge, nice, happy, grin (:

So Philip don't lie you know that you really smiled, hahah.

That aside, this is going to sound quite dumb but I'm so sick of school, like you know, the type of sick you get when you eat Macdonald's for like one whole month or something. I don't like seeing the same people around me everyday (though I love them a hell load, like seriously.) I don't like adapting, but say really I think going elsewhere beats staying here, hands down.

I miss you. & when you put your arm around me on that day, I just felt like, everything was really worth it. Though you're not here I know that you're never too far away. Thanks for all the encouragement & blah blah blah, you've been a really big part of my life & I can't imagine what I'd do without you.

You shine so bright it's insane
You put the sun to shame

You blockhead don't you get what I've been trying to sayyyy!

Overnighting at Aunty Lydia's was grrrreat, we were supposed to sleep at like, erm, 11. But other than listening to Justus Sim go on & on about how Zoe (Rachel Tan's dog -.-) is his new girlfriend, Tabbi & I ended up talking all the way untill like half, past, one. & I, actually woke up even before my alarm went off. Which was at erm, 5.30.

"Getting up for school" on a Sunday, I call it.

Sunrise (Son-rise! Erm it's Easter, get it?) service was !!!! My my I wondered if it rained the previous night, or if it was just dew. But whatever it is the grass was gross. Yes gross. On a totally irrelevant note, Stuart Tan is so tall & I don't like it. Wonder why God gave me such a cousin (hahah.)

I got veryyyy pissed off later into the day, but since it's over I don't think I should mention it anymore, but those creatures from Mars can be SO annoying at times! Roar.

Powerhouse was oh so fun. I think I like acting as if the whole damn world belongs to me & being like I'm smart when I'm not, erm to summarise it all into one word: Bimbo.

Walter: I don't know if it's a compliment or an insult but you & Joy were very into character.

(HAHAH like thanks alot Walter Yong!!!!)

I know & I think that you know but erm you know I hope you really really know what you know.

Reminder to self: slapppp Samuel Chow.

I won't change a thing for you.

"Waiting for you is like waiting for rain in the drough,
Useless, & disappointing."
Okay Stacy relax, & breathe.

Sports Fest yesterday (kind of) sucked. Because:
1. It rained the first thing in the morning.
2. I saw some people that I really didn't want to see.
3. We didn't do very well ):

So let's not go into detail.






Snapping away, first thing in the morning.



Handsome.

Handsome.


Handsome.

Handsome.


HAHAH being the usual retarded piece of shit.




Just look at her go.


Handsome.


Handsome.




Oops.


"See who's the real photographer?" he said.

SEE SEE SEE DESMOND SEEEE


Handsome (I only meant the guys in black.)


Handsome.


"N2 CB!" They said. How rude.

Thank God for Sim Shan Jie, who not only made my day but also went all the way to CCAB just to meet me (: lunched nearby (Macdonald's, again) & decided to go to the Botanical Gardens. Idiot made me walk the red brick path, which was freaking scary & I was like holding on to him as though he was my life or something. Actually it's quite hilarious now that I think of it, I was like, "oh shit oh shit I'm going to die!!" Erm well you get the idea.




Stacy, rocks (:


"Korkor, I think you look like the tortoise," I said.


Quack.




Pretty white little things with wings

Yay the photographer rocks (:
After sitting around & talking rubbish at the Swan Lake for like 124926829602 years, the wonderful big brother walked me back to my grandmother's place from the Botanical Gardens (:

After I went home I totally died on the bed, slept for 14 hours straight & my my I really needed that.

BBQ today was great, it was nice catching up with the cousins & all (: I had like SO much fun with the digital SLR, I really feel like begging Daddy to get me one too but ahhhh. Sim Shan Jie says I'll have a few of these when I go overseas, which is true, but waiting can be such a tiring business.

I wonder if I'd ever be able to live up to expectations. Some say they see the potential in me but how come I can't seem to see it in myself?

I hate to disappoint the ones I love, but what if, just what if, I let everyone down?

I know I can do so much better than this, I wasn't made to give up, my Maker gave me a stronger backbone than so many people but sometimes the world just seems so big, & I can't help it but feel small.

Maybe some people don't mean harm, but they can really make me feel inferior about myself. the way I react to what people say can be my greatest weakness at times & I hate it. Oh damn I really really hate it. I'm really sick of this particular demoralizing tone some people have. Sometimes they make it sound as though I'm going to be a failure for all my life. I'm still the same girl in so many ways but sometimes it's so hard to stay strong, if you know what I mean.

When will I be able to break free?

Fiona Neo Wenqi I don't care if Mrs Lee says you are the next Fann Wong, no matter who you are or who you'll be I'll always be erm, more adorable than you (:

Actually she's like right beside me now but hahah I don't care.
(yah , i knw you dont care)

-.- Bitch.

Okay anyway, I better stop talking about her otherwise she's not going to cook lunch for me hahahah.

I wanna go for Noon Tide! Anyone else interested? (Erm other than the retarded "Fann Wong" who's beside me)

Ahhhh let the clubbers voiz reign (:

I guess it's true that love was all you wanted
Cause' you're, giving it away like it's extra change
Hoping it will end up in his pocket
But he leaves you out, like a penny in the rain
Oh, cause it's not his price to pay
It's not his price to pay

Tied together with a smile

Part of Kengseng's PM: Good Friday coming soon!

Me: When's Good Friday?
Kengseng: Erm like this coming Friday!

!!!!!!!!! OH HALLELUJAH!

Stacy is a very, very, happy, little, girl.

& oh, I, was so thrilled at the fact that I have longggg weekend, I even overlooked the fact that Joel called me stupid ): (Though he was only kidding)

I'm adorable & I'm smart so I think I beat you hands down, so-NOT-cute idiot d:

Nobody else has this power over me
But you, but you, baby, you.
Okay okay I know I promised.






STUPID PHOTO RUINING HUMAN BEING AT THE BACK




& we shine brighter than anyone (:




That heart shape really attracts me. I mean seriously.




By law. By, freaking, law.


See, caught in the act. She couldn't care less about the, freaking, law.

The weather forecast freakingggg cheated me of my feelings, or rather my chance to have a nice tan, this morning when I woke up I expected to see like lotssss of clouds but noooo Mr. Sun was shining like it never shone before. Bloody hell.

& I hollered my dearestttt Miss Jasmine's phone like 13586285025 times. But all 13586285025 times to no answer. So much for waking her up. In the end I gave up & she woke up at like, 130, which was the time we were supposed to meet -.-

Anyway, Haji Lane is like, one of the best place to shop in Singapore. Well that is if you're able to find the place, today's probably our lucky day because we barely walked for 15 minutes & we found the place (insert a very delighted smiley face.) Jasmine & I were going ga-ga over allll the vintage stuffs in allll the different shops (:

& there was this really interesting shop, that had an automatic door & I got so freaked out by it!! Like how embarrasing. I was trying to figure out how the door opened & then it suddenly opened up by itself & I was like AHHHH shit what's going on. Okay I know you can imagine.

I'll be going back there to snap some pictures, like really soon (hopefully to do some shopping too, hahah.)

Oh speaking about pictures, I'm too lazy to edit & upload all the pictures we took today, so another day maybe...

...OKAY OKAY TOMORROW I PROMISE.

Honeyyyy, you've been a really great company today & I really had fun window shopping & erm, gossiping, with you (: though we don't get to see each other much, just wanna let you know that Bee lovessss you, like alot alot alotttt. Heehee (:

I've got to get up at 6.30 tomorrow! Pffft so much for meeting Sim Shan Jie for breakfast -.-

• ST♥CY /} Quatre, says:
WOW i need to get up at 630! or maybe 7.
±Яoѕicky.--\™ meh-ve [[ 10 ]]... ♥ollipers(: says:
so early!!!
• ST♥CY /} Quatre, says:
can't you think, i take like 1 hour to get ready, & another hour to get to bugis.
±Яoѕicky.--\™ meh-ve [[ 10 ]]... ♥ollipers(: says:
wow
±Яoѕicky.--\™ meh-ve [[ 10 ]]... ♥ollipers(: says:
lidat u sure cannot wake up lo
• ST♥CY /} Quatre, says:
i'll bet with you that i can.
• ST♥CY /} Quatre, says:
if i can get up, you'll have to buy another bar of chocolate for me :D
±Яoѕicky.--\™ meh-ve [[ 10 ]]... ♥ollipers(: says:
no
±Яoѕicky.--\™ meh-ve [[ 10 ]]... ♥ollipers(: says:
if u can wake up
±Яoѕicky.--\™ meh-ve [[ 10 ]]... ♥ollipers(: says:
korkor will treat u breakfast!!!
• ST♥CY /} Quatre, says:
ooooh okay (: i hold you to it.
• ST♥CY /} Quatre, says:
i'll be able to get up!!
• ST♥CY /} Quatre, says:
because i got no intention to sleep at all HAHAHA
±Яoѕicky.--\™ meh-ve [[ 10 ]]... ♥ollipers(: says:
are u serious!!!!!!!!!
• ST♥CY /} Quatre, says:
erm do i sound like i'm kidding.

Obviously I don't so okay now I'm going to go make coffee my best friend.

He looks around the room

Inoocently overlooks the truth

Shouldn't a light go on?

Doesn't he know I've had him memorized for so long?

He sees everything black & white

Never let nobody see him cry

I don't let nobody see me wishing he was mine

I'm not perfect, just all messed up

She wants to see, if there's more,

than he gave, she's looking for

I was SO happy today, because when I woke up I saw the sun. Like finally. Seriously felt like I haven't seen the sun in 2142623581654 years. So when I went online I saw Cherlynn & I went, I wanna go to Sentosa, like tomorrow. Then she was like, are you nuts, I'm like erm do I sound like I'm kidding?

But, the weather forecast, says that tomorrow would be a cloudy day ):

So maybe I should holler Jasmine & ask her out for lunch tomorrow. Or maybe I should go crash at Kieran's crib. Or maybe I should do some shopping on my own. Or maybe I should sleep in. Or maybe... I should stay in to finish up my homework (which is, by the way, nowhere near done.)

Or maybe I don't have to at all. Maybe I should just holler Fiona & ask her for the answers.

Like, what's a best friend for, right.

I miss someone especially much.

Don't tell anyone or you'll be just another regret,

AHHHH I CAN'T BELIEVE IT JUSTUS SIM SHANJIE THAT LITTLE JUICY PIECE OF NEWS IS SO !!!! HAHAHAH THAT, IS LIKE THE SCANDAL OF THE CENTURY HAHAHAHAHAHAH!!

Okay Stacy breathe breathe breathe...

!!!! HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAH!!

Ahhhh okay okay before you start stabbing me with carrots. JG is becoming so, happening. But erm no I'm not giving away what's so scandalous (: for me to know, & just maybe, for you to find out.

Oh dirty little secrets.

Anyway, I had a really, & I mean really, weird dream last night. It was so out of this world, don't ask me why but it wasn't like the normal, dreams. The dream made me think alot after I got up, I had to literally slap myself to make sure I was really awake, but even though I really want to brush it off like it's no biggie, everything still, happens for a reason, right.

I believe in You, but I really don't see any meaning in it. Did they mean anything? Who were those people? Where is it that You want me to go? What are You trying to tell me?

My my I hate it when I have so many questions & yet almost, nada, zilch, no answer at all.

/:

HAHAH Fiona Neo Wenqi you are such a retarded little girl (we were at Macdonald's.)

I don't think I know anyone else who sits, like you.

But it's okay because I love you anyway.

The Water Horse: Legend of the Deep

Not the best, but still worth watching. Wonderful tale about loss & a special friendship between a lonely boy & a creature most of us have heard of at one point or another (:

Now I wonder if Loch Ness monsters really exist...

I've recently found my new addiction: Michael Learns To Rock. Hahah it's kinda weird when you really think about it, like who else my age would appreciate this old band. But honestly there's just something about them that make their songs so, perfect.

Me: Daddy do you still have your MLTR CD?
Dad: I think it's somewhere in my car, why?
Me: OMG GO FIND IT I WANT ITTTT!
Dad: ?
Me: PLEEEEASEEEEE!!!!
Dad: What for?
Me: Oh it's nothing much, I just fell in love with them like, 2 days ago.

Then my dad gave me the, what's gotten into you, look.

I really wonder, WHY, HAS, THE, WEATHER, BEEN, SO, RETARDEDLY, SUCKY. I'm really craving for the sun sand & sea. I need to even out the darn tan, today I woke up & when I looked into the mirror I was like ZOMG Stacy you're already peeling (hello Sim Shan Jie, WHO, suggested sitting under the sun to watch a rugby match.)

Honestly. I have no intention of going to school tomorrow.

Why I love my best friends

I love Cherlynn & Fiona because...




Because they love me too! :D

You can give me anything, but love.

Daddy woke me up at 7 today: you're going to be late for school! & I'm like erm dad it's the holidays.

An hour later I got woken up by a call from Kieran asking me out to Sentosa (note to self: remember to set phone on silent mode when I go to bed), I looked out of the window & lo & behold, it was raining cats & dogs. I hurled some rather nasty words at him & hung up (Oops, sorry punk /:)

Then at 930, I got woken up by the meatball crying away.

After meatball settled down I thought I could finally have some undisturbed sleep, but noooo Mummy started the annoying little vacuum cleaner at 1130. So I got so fed up, I didn't want to sleep anymore.

Then I fell asleep at 2 & slept for the whole afternoon.

So now I'm wide awake & I don't think I'll be able to sleep again untill like, 3 o clock?

I really think I'm going to be nocturnal again, like you know, an owl, except that I don't have those claws & feathers.

Oh you know I just realised that I suck at expressing myself to a particular person in a certain way. I never knew that writing a letter could be so difficult...

& ahhhh I've reached another crossroad. Just where exactly do I go from here.

I wonder if I still mean anything. This thing should be the last thing on my mind because I know that I can't afford to be distracted. I've been thinking, asking myself questions that I can't answer. Honestly, I don't even know if I'll ever be able to find the answers to these questions that are in my head.

I hate leaving questions unanswered. & it's quite funny, sometimes when I think of it, because I always ask myself, "Why are you asking yourself these questions?", when I already know that this shouldn't mean Anything to me.

Maybe inside, knowing the fact that I once meant Something, is already good enough.

I gave you my heart & I wasn't afraid to fall

My my my what a week.

Monsieur don't blame me for not keeping my cool but you jolly well pushed me to the limit. It started with a darn scrapbook & YOU, just had to blow it up, didn't you. Like hello but unlike you, I have better things to do. If all of what happened was MY fault, then should I be responsible too if you got knocked down by a car? Just because I'm a girl doesn't mean you can push me around. I have got a backbone stronger than yours & I'm sure that if it involved someone with a Y chromosome instead, you wouldn't even have the freaking guts to do what you did. Then again, there's probably no point in wasting my time because with your dimunitive brain size, you probably wouldn't even understand half of what I'm saying. People like you probably think with your elbows.

Poor kid.

OKAY OKAY OKAY I'm sorry for the lack of updates, the one week holidays are here but for me, it's half non-existent.

But let's push that aside shall we. Met Justus yesterday & the weather was perfectttt, walked from Raffles to Clarke Quay & to City Hall, I'm really happy because I managed to get some really cool shots, but when it hit noon the sun was insane ): so while walking past the supreme court we saw some interschool rugby match, so we decided to sit there & watch those people play...

But anyway, I was being quite the retarded little girl, I was like, I'm going to wave to any tourist who passes by! & hahah I made such a huge joke out of myself when I waved to this bunch of Eurasians & all of them just stared at me like I was dumb.

Dinner today with Tabbi, Steph, Isa, Lester, Sam & Chris was grrrreat, went to Cafe Cartel, saw Riduwan who was working there & he was like my name isn't Riduwan, it's -points to his tag that read Xiao Lun-

-.- so he's still as full of shit as ever.

Received an unexpected call from Jasmine, gawdddd I miss that lady so much ):

Okay I don't care I am going to sleep in tomorrow.

Warren Leeee, you should stop jumping to conclusions, when neither Kaien nor Huiying mentioned any names on their respective blogs. Stop pointing fingers & accusing the wrong person. Meiqi has done nothing wrong & that is exactly why I am speaking up. I refuse to let her suffer in silence & I'm not afraid to say that I really didn't like the language you had used on her. In the past, you shouldn't have used her to forget somebody else. She isn't a toy that you can make use of & when you get bored of it, you just chuck it away. We've all been friends for so long & making things so difficult for all of us isn't helping in this already messed up situation. In a way, Josephine may be the victim, but I hope you realise that all of these is happening because of you & your reckless actions. You never should've been with Meiqi in the first place. I am not saying that you're the only one at fault, & neither am I siding Meiqi. I'm sure that both Meiqi & Josephine feels terrible. I've no comments about you & Josephine together but I think everybody would appreciate it if you're abit more sensitive to Meiqi's feelings.

That aside, Monday blues can be such a killer. I wasn't feeling quite myself today, & the fact that I had barely enough sleep yesterday night didn't make things any better. I was asking myself who exactly I'm upset with, but untill now I still don't know why I'm in such a horrible mood. Maybe it was the sms that I received last night that made me feel... Like this. People are telling me to give it some time but I'm already needing 30 hours a day. I've got no time to spare. Sure, I love the idea of hanging in there & staying strong, but what's the point when the other party is not giving me anything to hold on to?

I still feel like shit.

P/S: & no Meiqi, nothing you say will make me delete this post.

Beside myself

I can't save your life
though nothing I bleed for
is more tormenting
A part of me is still the same, but you don't know how much I've changed. So maybe I can't blame you for not trusting me.

Maybe you're afraid. But I, am terrified.

I tore you apart but I bet you never knew that it had hurt me just as much. Up to this day I still feel the pain.

You don't know what was beneath all the anger & hatred.

You don't know me anymore.

I'm, losing my mind
& you just stand there & stare
as my world divides

You don't know how much I love/hate you.

Pitstop, Prata, TCC - all in one day, accompanied with wonderful friends & of course, food.

(John was being extra nice today.)

I'm so upset now. People don't seem to understand that I don't have time. Maybe you should stop taking me like I'm a total retard. It's not like my brain is liquid shit. The damage has already been done, so maybe you should just spare me the nonsense & stop pretending like you know how it feels to be caught in such shit. Don't ask me questions like what I expect out of this whole thing. It's so messed up, I can't even think properly.

Screw this. Screw the shit out of them.

I never thought I'd say this but yes I am already standing at the edge & I'm losing grip.

& for everytime I see you I try

You won't believe my week.

Okay so I lost the bet.
Joel got up right on time so now I owe him a knock on the head ):

Earlier this week Fiona was telling me how she was mugging too much & it was making her sick, for a moment I wondered if she'd been possessed & I was like erm, Fiona?

Howard's birthday barbeque wasn't, that, great, even though I had fun, but that's mainly because Sebastian & friends were around (I still think that Jacky & David are exact clones.)

Happy (belated) birthday anyway, Howard (:
You may have been a part of me & my life for a short while, but looking at you the other day I realised that I no longer feel anything for & towards you. Every moment spent with you doesn't seem so irreplaceable now, I guess I'm glad that I'm getting on with life just fine. We were a mistake & sacrificing our friendship just wasn't worth it. Besides, I've never really belonged that little world of yours. You misunderstood me in the past & I really don't care if I ever get the chance to clear my name - because when I tried to do so you pushed me away. It doesn't matter if you still think that I was faking it all along, because I know that I had stayed true to myself. Very much in fact. In short, I no longer care about what you think of me. You were something to me not too long ago but today I can proudly say that I'm over you & I've already found a Better Place to put my trust, my hopes, & my heart. I don't hate you, I still do take you as a friend but I don't think we'll ever be able to go back to being the good friends we used to be. I hope that each road would lead you to where you wanna go, & do remember to cut down on the cigarettes (:

That aside, quality time spent with best friend at her place yesterday was definitely fun, with me throwing pillows & poking her, shaking hands & declaring "peace" & after a minute I'd go back to poking her... Have I ever said just how much I adore annoying Fiona & getting on her nerves?

3:16 event was slightly disappointing because the amount of people that turned up was rather pathetic, but worship was great, & I mean great. But honestly, if I were a newcomer, I would've felt that JG was quite boring... & it's game over if they really felt that way. The efforts some of the people had put in to invite their friends for the event would go down the drain, because in future if they were to ask their friends again to attend some other event, they would think of yesterday's event & say no. Maybe like what Walter said, evangelism shouldn't be on top of the list. They should get to know the people, & get them hooked to coming before they start evangelising.

Yawns. Thinking can actually be quite draining, you know.