When will the people I love most stop breaking my heart.

Against all odds.

I like where I am now but I am NOT satisfied. Because I know, & God knows, that I can do so much better. Probably no one would take a 16 year old who has such big dreams seriously & some people may not want to give me the chances that I feel that I definitely deserve, I do feel kind of upset about it but I'm not going to let it get to me. If you're not going to give me the chance, then I will fight for the chance. Maybe they don't see it in me but I'm telling the world now that I see it in myself & I feel it so strongly.

God is working, He's revealing to me what He wants me to do & I know it. It may seem unreachable but tonight nothing is going to get to me. It's not an easy road but I'm determined to reach it & I know that God is for me. So anyone else who is against it, can go bang a tree.

So prepare yourselves because when I stand there one day I will make your jaw drop to the ground.

God is bigger. & with Him, I can do so much, better.

Fill up my soul.

I BUMPED INTO JESMOND LIM (NABEI) TODAY ZOMG I MISS THAT BITCH (HAHA) SO MUCH

HEY BITCH WE'VE GOT TO CATCH UP REAL SOON!

Haha okay that sounded really gay.

Anyway I'm so exhausted I think I'm going to fall asleep once my head hit the pillow. Screw the exams.

Taking a break.

I just realised that I'm quite weird. Like when I study & once I hit a point where I can't study anymore, I need to talk, or rather rant, to somebody. & that's actually quite normal. The weird part is that I actually say really weird things.

Like, how I actually like tortoises. I told Chris to go catch me one.

Haha.

Anyway, maybe it's because I'm weird, that's why I have really weird people around me. Jethro is really weird. Chris is weird too, because he actually thinks that NS should be compulsory for women.

Shit I think all the nonsense about Healthcare is getting to me. Damn Social Studies.

[c=4][a=1][b]JETHRO99#26™[/a] -9664 (: [/c][c=99][b]-[/b][/c][/b][i][c=4] I [u][b]J[/b][/u] K [/i][/c] aspergersyndrome says:
play hard , study abit
• ST♥CY Over sideways under, says:
HAHAHA
[c=4][a=1][b]JETHRO99#26™[/a] -9664 (: [/c][c=99][b]-[/b][/c][/b][i][c=4] I [u][b]J[/b][/u] K [/i][/c] aspergersyndrome says:
serously ar , we young young must play
[c=4][a=1][b]JETHRO99#26™[/a] -9664 (: [/c][c=99][b]-[/b][/c][/b][i][c=4] I [u][b]J[/b][/u] K [/i][/c] aspergersyndrome says:
imagine you as a 25++
[c=4][a=1][b]JETHRO99#26™[/a] -9664 (: [/c][c=99][b]-[/b][/c][/b][i][c=4] I [u][b]J[/b][/u] K [/i][/c] aspergersyndrome says:
where got time play ?
• ST♥CY Over sideways under, says:
HAHAHAHHAHA
[c=4][a=1][b]JETHRO99#26™[/a] -9664 (: [/c][c=99][b]-[/b][/c][/b][i][c=4] I [u][b]J[/b][/u] K [/i][/c] aspergersyndrome says:
den imagine you as a mother
[c=4][a=1][b]JETHRO99#26™[/a] -9664 (: [/c][c=99][b]-[/b][/c][/b][i][c=4] I [u][b]J[/b][/u] K [/i][/c] aspergersyndrome says:
where got time to play sia
[c=4][a=1][b]JETHRO99#26™[/a] -9664 (: [/c][c=99][b]-[/b][/c][/b][i][c=4] I [u][b]J[/b][/u] K [/i][/c] aspergersyndrome says:
O lvl important
[c=4][a=1][b]JETHRO99#26™[/a] -9664 (: [/c][c=99][b]-[/b][/c][/b][i][c=4] I [u][b]J[/b][/u] K [/i][/c] aspergersyndrome says:
after that
[c=4][a=1][b]JETHRO99#26™[/a] -9664 (: [/c][c=99][b]-[/b][/c][/b][i][c=4] I [u][b]J[/b][/u] K [/i][/c] aspergersyndrome says:
relax
[c=4][a=1][b]JETHRO99#26™[/a] -9664 (: [/c][c=99][b]-[/b][/c][/b][i][c=4] I [u][b]J[/b][/u] K [/i][/c] aspergersyndrome says:
play
• ST♥CY Over sideways under, says:
LOL

It's like Jethro's world revolve around, play. The both of us are actually hooked onto Pokemon now :D

[c=4][a=1][b]JETHRO99#26™[/a] -9664 (: [/c][c=99][b]-[/b][/c][/b][i][c=4] I [u][b]J[/b][/u] K [/i][/c] aspergersyndrome says:
tomorrow playing against havester
• ST♥CY Over sideways under, says:
there's a hot angmoh in harvester!!!!
• ST♥CY Over sideways under, says:
last year he was number 18 :D
[c=4][a=1][b]JETHRO99#26™[/a] -9664 (: [/c][c=99][b]-[/b][/c][/b][i][c=4] I [u][b]J[/b][/u] K [/i][/c] aspergersyndrome says:
DUN TALK ABT THE ANG MOH MAN!
[c=4][a=1][b]JETHRO99#26™[/a] -9664 (: [/c][c=99][b]-[/b][/c][/b][i][c=4] I [u][b]J[/b][/u] K [/i][/c] aspergersyndrome says:
I AM DAMN DULAN ABOUT HIM
• ST♥CY Over sideways under, says:
WHY!!!!!
[c=4][a=1][b]JETHRO99#26™[/a] -9664 (: [/c][c=99][b]-[/b][/c][/b][i][c=4] I [u][b]J[/b][/u] K [/i][/c] aspergersyndrome says:
he bully me
• ST♥CY Over sideways under, says:
LOL!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
[c=4][a=1][b]JETHRO99#26™[/a] -9664 (: [/c][c=99][b]-[/b][/c][/b][i][c=4] I [u][b]J[/b][/u] K [/i][/c] aspergersyndrome says:
i jump he jump
[c=4][a=1][b]JETHRO99#26™[/a] -9664 (: [/c][c=99][b]-[/b][/c][/b][i][c=4] I [u][b]J[/b][/u] K [/i][/c] aspergersyndrome says:
den i head the ball
[c=4][a=1][b]JETHRO99#26™[/a] -9664 (: [/c][c=99][b]-[/b][/c][/b][i][c=4] I [u][b]J[/b][/u] K [/i][/c] aspergersyndrome says:
he knock me
[c=4][a=1][b]JETHRO99#26™[/a] -9664 (: [/c][c=99][b]-[/b][/c][/b][i][c=4] I [u][b]J[/b][/u] K [/i][/c] aspergersyndrome says:
i fly
• ST♥CY Over sideways under, says:
HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!!!!!!!!!!!
[c=4][a=1][b]JETHRO99#26™[/a] -9664 (: [/c][c=99][b]-[/b][/c][/b][i][c=4] I [u][b]J[/b][/u] K [/i][/c] aspergersyndrome says:
den fly NO FOUL
[c=4][a=1][b]JETHRO99#26™[/a] -9664 (: [/c][c=99][b]-[/b][/c][/b][i][c=4] I [u][b]J[/b][/u] K [/i][/c] aspergersyndrome says:
-.-
[c=4][a=1][b]JETHRO99#26™[/a] -9664 (: [/c][c=99][b]-[/b][/c][/b][i][c=4] I [u][b]J[/b][/u] K [/i][/c] aspergersyndrome says:
its not funny STACY
• ST♥CY Over sideways under, says:
HAHHAHAHAHAHAHHAA
• ST♥CY Over sideways under, says:
OMG IT'S HILARIOUS
• ST♥CY Over sideways under, says:
HAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAH
• ST♥CY Over sideways under, says:
FLY AHAHAHAHHAHA FLYYYYYYY
[c=4][a=1][b]JETHRO99#26™[/a] -9664 (: [/c][c=99][b]-[/b][/c][/b][i][c=4] I [u][b]J[/b][/u] K [/i][/c] aspergersyndrome says:
den i physical with him , NO EFFECT SIA
• ST♥CY Over sideways under, says:
LOLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLL
[c=4][a=1][b]JETHRO99#26™[/a] -9664 (: [/c][c=99][b]-[/b][/c][/b][i][c=4] I [u][b]J[/b][/u] K [/i][/c] aspergersyndrome says:
omg
[c=4][a=1][b]JETHRO99#26™[/a] -9664 (: [/c][c=99][b]-[/b][/c][/b][i][c=4] I [u][b]J[/b][/u] K [/i][/c] aspergersyndrome says:
tml
[c=4][a=1][b]JETHRO99#26™[/a] -9664 (: [/c][c=99][b]-[/b][/c][/b][i][c=4] I [u][b]J[/b][/u] K [/i][/c] aspergersyndrome says:
he left wing
[c=4][a=1][b]JETHRO99#26™[/a] -9664 (: [/c][c=99][b]-[/b][/c][/b][i][c=4] I [u][b]J[/b][/u] K [/i][/c] aspergersyndrome says:
i right back
[c=4][a=1][b]JETHRO99#26™[/a] -9664 (: [/c][c=99][b]-[/b][/c][/b][i][c=4] I [u][b]J[/b][/u] K [/i][/c] aspergersyndrome says:
MAMPOS
• ST♥CY Over sideways under, says:
LOLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLL
[c=4][a=1][b]JETHRO99#26™[/a] -9664 (: [/c][c=99][b]-[/b][/c][/b][i][c=4] I [u][b]J[/b][/u] K [/i][/c] aspergersyndrome says:
stupid angmoh
[c=4][a=1][b]JETHRO99#26™[/a] -9664 (: [/c][c=99][b]-[/b][/c][/b][i][c=4] I [u][b]J[/b][/u] K [/i][/c] aspergersyndrome says:
tml better dun let me see him
• ST♥CY Over sideways under, says:
but he's handsome!!
[c=4][a=1][b]JETHRO99#26™[/a] -9664 (: [/c][c=99][b]-[/b][/c][/b][i][c=4] I [u][b]J[/b][/u] K [/i][/c] aspergersyndrome says:
i nvr observe
• ST♥CY Over sideways under, says:
HAHAHAHHAHAHAH
[c=4][a=1][b]JETHRO99#26™[/a] -9664 (: [/c][c=99][b]-[/b][/c][/b][i][c=4] I [u][b]J[/b][/u] K [/i][/c] aspergersyndrome says:
at first i tot angmoh frenly
[c=4][a=1][b]JETHRO99#26™[/a] -9664 (: [/c][c=99][b]-[/b][/c][/b][i][c=4] I [u][b]J[/b][/u] K [/i][/c] aspergersyndrome says:
den he knock me i fly
[c=4][a=1][b]JETHRO99#26™[/a] -9664 (: [/c][c=99][b]-[/b][/c][/b][i][c=4] I [u][b]J[/b][/u] K [/i][/c] aspergersyndrome says:
den he say
[c=4][a=1][b]JETHRO99#26™[/a] -9664 (: [/c][c=99][b]-[/b][/c][/b][i][c=4] I [u][b]J[/b][/u] K [/i][/c] aspergersyndrome says:
NO FOUL NO FOUL
[c=4][a=1][b]JETHRO99#26™[/a] -9664 (: [/c][c=99][b]-[/b][/c][/b][i][c=4] I [u][b]J[/b][/u] K [/i][/c] aspergersyndrome says:
wth
• ST♥CY Over sideways under, says:
HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAAAAAA
[c=4][a=1][b]JETHRO99#26™[/a] -9664 (: [/c][c=99][b]-[/b][/c][/b][i][c=4] I [u][b]J[/b][/u] K [/i][/c] aspergersyndrome says:
im 15 last yr and shorter smaller , i dun eat more burgers than him , den he knock me intentionally den say no foul
[c=4][a=1][b]JETHRO99#26™[/a] -9664 (: [/c][c=99][b]-[/b][/c][/b][i][c=4] I [u][b]J[/b][/u] K [/i][/c] aspergersyndrome says:
stupid ang moh
• ST♥CY Over sideways under, says:
HAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAH
[c=4][a=1][b]JETHRO99#26™[/a] -9664 (: [/c][c=99][b]-[/b][/c][/b][i][c=4] I [u][b]J[/b][/u] K [/i][/c] aspergersyndrome says:
-.-
[c=4][a=1][b]JETHRO99#26™[/a] -9664 (: [/c][c=99][b]-[/b][/c][/b][i][c=4] I [u][b]J[/b][/u] K [/i][/c] aspergersyndrome says:
not funny lor , make me look like an ANT vs a HUMAN
[c=4][a=1][b]JETHRO99#26™[/a] -9664 (: [/c][c=99][b]-[/b][/c][/b][i][c=4] I [u][b]J[/b][/u] K [/i][/c] aspergersyndrome says:
-.-
[c=4][a=1][b]JETHRO99#26™[/a] -9664 (: [/c][c=99][b]-[/b][/c][/b][i][c=4] I [u][b]J[/b][/u] K [/i][/c] aspergersyndrome says:
-.-
[c=4][a=1][b]JETHRO99#26™[/a] -9664 (: [/c][c=99][b]-[/b][/c][/b][i][c=4] I [u][b]J[/b][/u] K [/i][/c] aspergersyndrome says:
-.-
[c=4][a=1][b]JETHRO99#26™[/a] -9664 (: [/c][c=99][b]-[/b][/c][/b][i][c=4] I [u][b]J[/b][/u] K [/i][/c] aspergersyndrome says:
-.-
• ST♥CY Over sideways under, says:
HAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHHAHHAHAHA
• ST♥CY Over sideways under, says:
IM STILL LAUGHING
• ST♥CY Over sideways under, says:
HAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAA

If some of you loyal readers remembered, I posted a post sometime last year & I was ranting about the really hot caucasian guy in the whole post. Maybe it's just me but in my mind the picture of Zidane headbutting Marco Materazzi keeps popping up hahahaaaa.

Okay bye the time now is 2.20 AM & I'm going back to my books. Hah.

There's so much left to learn, & no one left to fight
I wanna hold you high & steal your pain


Famous megawatt smile.
IT'S FRIDAY IT'S FRIDAY IT'S FINALLY, FRIDAY.

So yes Stacy is quite a happy girl except for the fact that I don't know where the older brother has disappeared to. Stupid idiot is wasting my time & he's getting on my nerves. Roar.

Reminder to self: CHARGE CAMERA BATTERY.

Oh she's so lucky, she's a star

Stacy has quite a sore arm now.

The story goes like this:
During Chemistry ASP today we were doing practical on gases. Huiying was standing beside me with the sink in between us & she was heating her solution on the happy little blue bunsen burner while I was obviously heating mine. I guess she wasn't paying attention or so because the next moment I knew, her solution was boiling & it shot out of the test tube, & it landed (or maybe, splattered) very nicely on my arm.

Hah. So I guess I'm quite lucky. Or maybe unlucky. Or maybe just lucky in an unlucky way. Because how many people actually don't pay attention when they're heating their solutions. Or how many freaking solutions actually shoot out. Or, how many freaking hot solution that actually shoot out would land on somebody's arm. Or MY arm, for this case.

But actually my arm is fine. It's just that it's abit tender & sore when I touch it. I just felt like ranting about the whole incident because I can't believe my, luck.

When nothing you do can change my mind.

I don't think I'll call today "unfruitful" because I actually laid in bed & watched Freedom Writers, Resident Evil: Extinction & Shall We Dance (:

I hate the cough mixture the doctor gave me. Even though on the box it says, Blackcurrant flavour, it's really nowhere close to that. Not only it taste horrible, it makes my throat burn. Kind of makes me feel like I'm downing nail varnish remover. I really wonder how people can even abuse it, it seriously taste like, shit.

Not that I have really stuffed shit into my mouth, just a figure of speech.

Damn it's back to school for me tomorrow. Maybe I should go back to the doctor's & pretend that I'm really really sick & make him give me his whole book of MCs. Yes maybe.

I was looking through my pictures as a kid sometime last week. I was quite amused, yet sad, because I realised that all that innocence I had when I was a kid just isn't there anymore. I miss believing in everything. I really can't remember how I looked at the world when I was six. It's never going to come back & six seems a really faraway number. There are times I still want to be a kid, you know.

That feeling is like a missing piece in me & I think it'll always be there. Maybe, that's part of the reason why I find so much contentment in serving in the children's ministry. Though sometimes it can be quite physically draining, at the end of the day I always look back, give myself a pat on the back & feel satisfied.

Now who would I be ten years from now? When I become a mother myself would I still try to remember how I felt about the world when I was six? How about twenty? Thirty? Forty? Fifty?

I love stepping out of the house in an oversized tee.

I (still) love my pink sneakers & cap.

I have this weird obsession for green & orange highlighters I don't know why.

I have spent my whole day slacking away.

What an unfruitful Monday.

Tuesday would probably be a very unfruitful day too.

I have lost like, all motivation to mug.

So yes I can really go bang my head against some tree because I am going to flunk my Mid Years.

Physics suck. Really, really, suck.

I was watching JG camp 06 special night's skits just a moment ago.

Romeo & Juliet was !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! hahahahahahaaaa.

I laughed so hard I think I have abs now.

I almost couldn't recognise myself.

Amazing what couple of years could mean.

King Arthur was particularly funny.

Maybe because, Joel was still 15 & he kind of looked like a young kid.

& Alaster Koh still had his hair.

& RYAN PHUA STILL LOOKED LIKE SOME ANNOYING ADOLESCENT KID.

(He was still shorter than me)

Sometimes I feel really short.

But I feel especially tall when I stand beside Fiona.

:D

I love bathing with hot water.

Though 15 minutes after I step out of the bathroom I feel very sleepy.

But that's okay because sleeping makes Stacy a very happy girl.

I am actually quite sleepy now.

I think the flu medicine has kicked in.

Which is pretty fast, considering the fact that I just popped it 10 minutes ago.

Some people just won't give me the chances that I need.

That, is really getting quite annoying.

Because I know that they know what's in me.

Then again I think it doesn't really bother me.

If I'm not given any chances, then I'll fight for my chances.

Honestly I would've kicked this person's donkey ass if:

1. He's not a guy.

2. He's not like 4 or maybe 5 times my size.

Okay maybe I'm exaggerating the second part.

But that's okay right.

I think I quite like being the dramaqueen like once in awhile.

I've got the most influential person's back.

Note to self: Remember to charge camera's battery.

Otherwise you can forget about working your magic this Sunday.

Stacy rocks quite alot of people's world.

POSITIVE.

Some, people really rock mine too, y'know.

If you think you rock my world then maybe you really do.

But I don't know you could be wrong too.

This has been such a pointless post.

I need to get a new pencil case.

I want to repaint my room.

Soon.

I think I'm going to paint a Tigger in my room.

So every morning when I wake up the first thing I see is my favourite cartoon character.

Yay Tigger.

Or maybe I should just put up like a humongous Ryan Giggs poster.

I'll go & kiss it every night before I sleep hahahahaaaa.

I need to go shopping really soon.

Funny thing is that I've been repeating that for like 5 thousand years.

Where is the $$$$, the $$$$, the $$$$, where is the $$$$, the $$$$, the $$$$.

I think coughing would really give you abs.

I've been coughing since Friday & today when I woke up my tummy actually ached.

So erm, yes.

It's very annoying, everytime I hear a nice song over the radio & I don't know what's the title.

It rained really heavily earlier today.

I hope it rains tomorrow.

& threemorrow.

& fourmorrow.

& fivemorrow.

& sixmorrow.

& sevenmorrow...

I think I miss a particular somebody.

I should get somebody out of my head.

Really.

I'm terribly sorry for that lack of updates, I've been feeling really really horrible ):

Made my way to JG on Saturday for musician practice despite the fever, I actually hit 39 that day & I was like zomg. Korkor half freaked, he was like ANYBODY IN THE RIGHT MIND WOULDN'T EVEN TAKE A STEP OUT OF THE HOUSE & I just went, okay, okay.

Yesterday Korkor made a comment, he said that I might've contracted Dengue, I freaked, very nearly believed him, I was smsing Fiona (the joke), she's seriously so full of shit I wonder if she actually stuff herself with faeces during every mealtime.

Me: I don't think I'm going to school, I'm really sick.
Fiona: !!!! I hope I'll be in pain, or I should go into some air conditioned place now & fall sick too.
Me: I'm scared I have Dengue!!!!!
Fiona: I think God wants me to be sick too, I just alighted & it started raining.
Me: HAHAHA don't be retarded. ZOMG if I really have Dengue I'd have to go to the hospital!!!!
Fiona: Oh it's okay I'll go over to visit you.
Me: Yay then you can keep me company.
Fiona: Yeah & I have a new place to go to when I skip school.
Me: Erm. We're making it sound like I'm really going to the hospital.
Fiona: It's okay you know, we must always plan for the worst.
Me: So you're saying you really want me to go to the hospital.
Fiona: Not really, even though we must always look at the positive side, we must also plan for the worst otherwise we wouldn't know what to do when bad things happen.

!!!!! I'm like FIONA NEO WENQI YOU ARE SO FULL OF SHIT.

Later in the afternoon I couldn't take it anymore & I went to Quek & said, I think I have Dengue because my temperature have been going up & down. He's like who told you that! When your temperature is up up up up then it's Dengue. -.- Thanks alot, Justus Sim.

When I was on the MRT home I received an unexpected call from Kai, he was like Stacy Stacy did you go for the soccer match? I'm like erm no I'm really sick -.-

So obviously I missed the guys' soccer match yesterday against Church of Victory, but they totally owed them 6 - 1 (:

Korkor: Warren was pissed, Sam was pissed, Bram was pissed, Alaster was even more freaking pissed

HAHAHAHAHAHAHA man I really wished I was there to catch a shot!

That aside, I went to the doctor's yesterday, Stacy has like 2 days MC so to everyone else, please have fun at school (:

):

STACY IS VERY, VERY, VERY, SICK.

My poor guitar fell to the victim of my brother:






As you can see, there's a missing string in my guitar. Guess who did it.


Is it just me, or does he have the, "heeheehee I'm going to destroy jiejie's guitar" look.

Anyway, I'm so hot I think the heat is radiating off me. (Pun intended.) I hope the fever goes away by tomorrow! The cough is really getting to me. There couldn't be a better time than this, I'm on for back up singing tomorrow!!

School was !!!! a hell load of fun today. What a Friday! Practical was fun, except for the heating part because the Ammonia gas, stank.

Chinese ASP was hahahahahaaaa.

The older brother & Stephanie are both nagging at me to go to sleep like NOWWWW. So I'll end off with this:


There couldn't be a better shot.

Now where do you belong.

Losing is not an option. It has never been one.

I don't see any reason for me to give in anymore. Don't underestimate me because you have never seen what I can do. You, are nobody to judge me. Stop trying so hard my darling, you know it's never going to work. I can always see it, though you think that I can't. I've wasted enough of my time & you should've known better than to cross my path. Don't make me say that you, asked for it.

Now little chick, you want to be me, don't you? You've got a hell lot to learn, but get this in your head:

I am everything that you are not.

You are no match. No match.

The little things

You speaking your mind &, saying the real thing

My feet have broke free, & I am leaving

I'm not gonna stand here, feeling lonely but

I don't regret it, & I won't think it, was just a waste of time

We had a test on Electricity for today's Physics ASP. But before the test, we (namely Sihao, Jiehan, Fiona & myself) were trying to cram definitions & formulas into our heads, Jiehan went something like what's current & Fiona, being the smart alec:

Fiona: Current is the flow of rate of charge.
Me: Erm Fiona?
Jiehan: -flips through textbook- Current is the rate of flow of charge!!!
Sihao: HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA

Mannnn. So for the whole 15 minutes or so, Fiona simply went, "Current is the rate of flow of charge!" When we got the papers, I was like, hmmm Fiona I think the question would come out.

Lo & behold, when I flipped over the paper the very first question was: Define electric current.

-.-

That aside. Sometimes I really feel like a little girl (or maybe, boy.) Today Fiona & I were at Popular & I chanced upon the Manchester United sticker collection for 07/08 season. Being the retarded kid, I actually bought it (no Ryan Giggs T.T) On the way home, I was sort of doing some reflections & I was like mannnn Stacy what the hell is wrong with you, only young Primary school kiddos buy such stuff!

But erm now I'm almost hooked, I actually told Korkor I'm not going to stop untill I get my hands on Giggs.

Me: I'm still hunting for Ryan Giggs.
Korkor: Well if I ever see a Giggs poster I'll get it for you, actually I already know what to get for you on your birthday.
Me: It's okay, really, because I love Giggs so much I want to give him all my money.

HAHAHAHAHAHA.

Free.

If you turned back the hands of time, perhaps back to a few months back or so, I know I would've said that you're irresistable.

But now I think I can safely say:

You are, resistable.

I've learnt to trust, to believe, to surrender. I'm already sick & tired of having to take matters into my own hands & I'm so much better off in His hands. I know who are the ones I can really confide in, & who are the ones that'll only mess me up. Maybe it'll still take sometime & none of us know what's going to happen somewhere down the road.

People change. Feelings change.

I've been thinking quite a fair bit. If all goes well, I guess I'll be leaving soon. I have doubts. & like what Kieran says, although this may be something that I want to do, I really have to give it much thought because it is a risky decision. Going somewhere else is definitely something to look forward to, but I still don't know where life is taking me.

This is going to be a really huge joke, but yesterday night I fell asleep while Korkor was reading me a bedtime story (Sleeping Beauty, to be exact.) Man! Sometimes I can't help but feel like such a kid. But then again, thank God for such a wonderful brother. I just went, I want a bedtime story!! & he was like, which one?

School is becoming such a pain in the ass. Damn I hate Algebra. Though I've no choice, I really can't see how it is going to help me in the future.

On a lighter note:
http://www.manutd.com/default.sps?pagegid=%7BB4CEE8FA%2D9A47%2D47BC%2DB069%2D3F7A2F35DB70%7D&newsid=548895

Very very very comforting news (:

How could anyone wanted Giggs off the team in the first place. When I read the newspapers last week I was like, man, just what on earth went wrong with those idiots. What would Man Utd do without it's legendary winger!!

Giggs will keep on going & so will I.

Clinging to the Cross.

Mercy’s found a way for me,
Hope is here as I am free
For He is my Jehovah-Jireh, He is more than what I need.
I will live to tell of Your story & how You have been so real, so amazing, to me.
Thank You for... So many things (:

My weekend has been so wonderful. I refuse to dwell on the things that I'm not supposed to worry about. So don't you dare bring me down.

Manchester United vs Arsenal tonight, Fiona & I are going to go for each other's throats. UNITED WILL RULE!

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Noooo why isn't Giggs playing tonight!!

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Jehovah-jireh.

& it's such a miracle that you & me are still good friends
After all that we've been through, I know we're cool

JOEL TAN YAOHUI IF YOU'RE READING THIS, I WANT TO DEDICATE THIS POST TO YOU TO LET YOU KNOW THAT YOU'RE SUCH AN ANNOYING, RETARDED, INSANE, STINKY, IDIOT.

Joel: Batman forever. my OG rocks says:
u've just earned urself a new nickname man
• ST♥CY Over sideways under, says:
SHUT UP
Joel: Batman forever. my OG rocks says:
Ms.. Gullable

One. (Gull-a-ble. Hahahahahahahahaha.)

• ST♥CY Over sideways under, says:
it's g-u-l-l-i-b-l-e. not g-u-l-l-a-b-l-e.
• ST♥CY Over sideways under, says:
HAHAHAHA
Joel: Batman forever. my OG rocks says:
i noe
Joel: Batman forever. my OG rocks says:
i so long nvr go sch hw to remember
Joel: Batman forever. my OG rocks says:
NVR GO SCH
Joel: Batman forever. my OG rocks says:
haha
Joel: Batman forever. my OG rocks says:
*rubs in ur face*

Two.

• ST♥CY Over sideways under, says:
IT'S OKAY YOU'LL JOIN THE SCHOOLING GANG IN LIKE 32 HOURS
Joel: Batman forever. my OG rocks says:
hmmm
Joel: Batman forever. my OG rocks says:
nt 32 hrs
Joel: Batman forever. my OG rocks says:
33 hrs
Joel: Batman forever. my OG rocks says:
haha

Three. (Bloody hell he just had to correct me)

• ST♥CY Over sideways under, says:
you are so retarded
Joel: Batman forever. my OG rocks says:
i am sane
Joel: Batman forever. my OG rocks says:
nt retarded
• ST♥CY Over sideways under, says:
oh please -.-
• ST♥CY Over sideways under, says:
retarded people wouldn't say they're retarded. right.
Joel: Batman forever. my OG rocks says:
haha remember wad i said man
Joel: Batman forever. my OG rocks says:
if i'm retarded
Joel: Batman forever. my OG rocks says:
SO ARE UUUUUU!!!

Four.

Joel: Batman forever. my OG rocks says:
seriously man
Joel: Batman forever. my OG rocks says:
ur the best person to disturb lor

Five. (Thanks. Alot.)

• ST♥CY Over sideways under, says:
stacy is cute, she's cuter that you, & she'll always be the cutest around.
Joel: Batman forever. my OG rocks says:
naaaaaaaaaa
Joel: Batman forever. my OG rocks says:
thats nt true man. the word fake is all over it=)
• ST♥CY Over sideways under, says:
then you must be blind.
• ST♥CY Over sideways under, says:
have you been living under a rock?
• ST♥CY Over sideways under, says:
stacy is the hottest thing in town!
Joel: Batman forever. my OG rocks says:
LOL
Joel: Batman forever. my OG rocks says:
u just did it again
Joel: Batman forever. my OG rocks says:
UR A THING!????!!

Six.

• ST♥CY Over sideways under, says:
i'll just continue throwing tomatoes in your face
• ST♥CY Over sideways under, says:
stacy rockszxszxszxzszx
Joel: Batman forever. my OG rocks says:
haha
Joel: Batman forever. my OG rocks says:
i noe why u using tomatoes
Joel: Batman forever. my OG rocks says:
cause the carrots u used to stab run out alrdy rite?

Seven.

• ST♥CY Over sideways under, says:
ewwww i hate hard boiled eggs
• ST♥CY Over sideways under, says:
i only eat those that are red (:
Joel: Batman forever. my OG rocks says:
thats a good thing to throw at u
Joel: Batman forever. my OG rocks says:
eggs arent red
Joel: Batman forever. my OG rocks says:
only the shells become red man

Eight. (Sigh.)

• ST♥CY Over sideways under, says:
LOL when he came out i was like "TIM HUGHES IS MY IDOL!!!!" & marcus lim & justus stared at me like i was crazy -.-
Joel: Batman forever. my OG rocks says:
orh hor
Joel: Batman forever. my OG rocks says:
idol
• ST♥CY Over sideways under, says:
NOT IDOL AS IN, ...
• ST♥CY Over sideways under, says:
I DONT WORSHIP HIM RIGHT!!!!
Joel: Batman forever. my OG rocks says:
haha
Joel: Batman forever. my OG rocks says:
u said idol *smiles *

Nine. (Don't give me that smile idiot!!)

• ST♥CY Over sideways under, says:
sleep tight don't fall off your bed & don't let the bedbugs bite!
Joel: Batman forever. my OG rocks says:
they wont
Joel: Batman forever. my OG rocks says:
CAUSE THEY'LL ALL BITE U

Ten.

Man what a conversation, I actually LET him get me for 10 times!!! (Yes let!!)

• ST♥CY Look away, says:
yo desmond
• ST♥CY Look away, says:
did you do the e-learning thing?
Desmond~ says:
no
Desmond~ says:
u?
Desmond~ says:
i damn lazy do sia
• ST♥CY Look away, says:
i didn't do it also -.-
• ST♥CY Look away, says:
LOL we're gonna get trashed by the teachers on monday
Desmond~ says:
hahaha
Desmond~ says:
together la
Desmond~ says:
steady

LOL Desmond is such a enormous joke.

Somebody get your praise on.

Overall, it's a not-very-horrifying horror movie, though some parts really sent shivers down my spine. Very interesting twist at the end. My soul's still intact after the show but I've a very bad feeling that this movie will just pop up in my mind when I snap pictures. It's not difficult to picture myself thinking twice before I put my eye to the viewfinder.

The worship convention for both days were woah. Seriously, woah. Attented today's session with Korkor, Eleanor, Lemuel, Marcus Lee, Warren, Kang, Bram, Joel, Glen, Philip, Walter, Ryan, Marcus Lim, & Sam (: The place was so packed as compared to yesterday! At first a few of us couldn't get into the place because we were late & they had already closed the gates. We decided to queue because the event was just too good to be missed, & you guys should've seen the queue. It was all the way from Hall 10, right to where City Harvest's located (Hall 7?) But thank God Lemuel's cousin was like somewhere waaayyyy infront, so erm, we "joined" the queue there. Fast forward. Walter & the rest were in there earlier, thank God for wonderful friends who'd reserve seats. ("Haha Stacy how many times are you going to repeat that" said Kang.)

Planetshakers were hot stuff! They totally brought the whole house down. The atmosphere was definitely there, it was so overwhelming & God moved in such a mighty manner. Planetshakers totally beat every Linkin Park concert I've been to, hands down. During worship a few of us were like jumping jumping jumping & suddenly Marcus Lim went, ahhhh the thing is going down!! Well it was true, actually, the elevation thing kinda, erm, went down, by that little bit. Yes just a little bit I promise.

When Tim Hughes appeared I nearly melted into a puddle. I was going, OMG OMG OMG IT'S TIM HUGHES!!!/HE'S MY IDOL!!!/I LOVE TIM HUGHES!!! at the top of my lungs. Erm well everyone just looked at me like I was nuts. Sometimes I really think that I should go & bang my head against a tree for being such a retarded object.

Anyway. The older brother & I are quite upset because he didn't lead Blessed Be Your Name today ):

Ahhhh Tim Hughes Tim Hughes Tim Hughes Tim Hughes...

Decided against going for supper with the rest, thank God I managed to catch the second last bus home & thank God I didn't go with the rest, otherwise right now I'd be stuck at the East side. I'm a very very physically tired girl now, but really, nothing can explain the way I feel, deep inside.

There's so many things I have to thank You for.
Thank You for this wonderful night.
Thank You for all the amazing people I have in my life.
Thank You for the nail pierced hands.
Thank You for this perfect love.
Thank You for everything else, I can never thank You enough.

I love going crazy for You.
I love You.

18 days.

Because you'd never be my reason why.

I think I've already made up my mind. If this was what you wanted all along, then there you have it.

You'll probably never know what was running through her mind at that point of time, but I just hope that you'll remember the way she used to stare into your eyes, the way she smiled when you caught her looking at you, the way she laid her head across your lap & fell asleep, & the way you made her feel as though she was your world when you put your arms around her.

Don't ask me why. I just don't want to put up this fight anymore.

23 days.

They like the way I play the game

I've been unceremoniously tagged! (Thanks alot Jasmine -.-)

1. Happy?
- There's actually really nothing to be happy about, but I feel okay.
2. When was the last time you went out?
- Erm like this morning.
3. What was the last movie you watch?
- Step Up 2
4. The last place you went?
- SP
5. Missing someone?
- Kind of /:
6. What made you smile today?
- I smiled but I can't remember why...
7. Are you scared to fall in love?
- Not really, actually.
8. Ever thought you were in love?
- I knew I was.
9. What is your status right now?
- Single.
10. Did you dream last night?
- I can't remember!!
11. What were you doing this morning at 7 am?
- Getting ready for school.
12. What were you doing this morning at 10 am?
- Falling asleep in Physics.
13. Name a country you want to visit
- Manchester! Well though it's not really a country...
14. Do you have a tattoo?
- Nope.
15. What was the last thing you ate?
- I can't remember!
16. Last thing you drank?
- Water?
17. Do you have a nick name?
- Yes -.-
18. One thing you do everyday?
- Sleep.
19. Are you a type of person who easily gets hurt?
- Well it depends...
20. The last thing you said to one of your friends?
- Bye.
21. Rate your day 1-10.
- Say, 6?
22. Did anything exciting happen today?
- No. Damn I've a monotonous life.
23. Type something that is on your mind?
- Wondering when's dinner.
24. How many things in your past do you regret?
- 2?
25. Do you have a best friend?
- Yes :D
26. What do you want to be when you grow up?
- Wildlife photographer Housewife Wildlife photographer.
27. What's up for tomorrow?
- School. Damn.
28. What are you listening to right now?
- Before He Cheats
29. Name someone you hate the most.
- Ladadeedum...
30. Name anyone(s) u love the most.
- Actually I could give you a long list... But I love myself.
31. Are you religious?
- Maybe?
32. Who are you looking forward to meeting up this coming days?
- Justus Sim?
33. Passing this on to?
- I will be a nice girl.

Hahah that was actually quite amusing, I haven't done something like that in like 3 thousand years.

What I did last week is my last attempt. I've decided that I am not going to try anymore. I think that I have done enough, or maybe even too much. It takes two hands to clap, & two to believe. As much as I want to, I'm unable to do it on my own. I hope you already know that you are the reason why, for alot of the things that I do, & also alot of the decisions that I make. I know that you don't mean harm, but sometimes you really make things tough on me. Sometimes I feel like the "power" you have over me is just so overwhelming, you can not do anything yet just make me feel as though you're pushing me into one corner & leaving me with no way out. The million different things that you can make me feel is just so hard to handle.

I'm not the same, & I'm not going to try to prove myself, to make you believe in me, anymore.

The reason why,

Could it be that maybe it's our first mistake
& baby that's alright
It's crazy how we lost ourselves tonight
There's a reason why they say that we should give it time
But time is not enough
& that's the reason why,
When you're young you fall in love
Half an hour ago I smsed Fiona, asking her for the answers to my Physics homework. Right after sending her the sms, & while waiting for her to reply, I went to her blog & lo & behold:

"I don't feel like doing my homework. & I bet Stacy won't do it so I can't get the answer from her. Oh, & it's Physics, so I'm sure that she'll ask the answers from me instead."

After I read that I was like, bloody rabbit.

It goes to show just how much my best friend knows me, haha.

So tell me can this really work
Or will we end up getting hurt
Is this love, or myth?
So tell me are you in for this
There's so much more than we can see
More than you, more than me
It takes two to believe

Breathe easy,

I eat so slowly it's starting to scare me. Like, big time.

Stacy dragged her ass out of bed at 6.30 on a Saturday morning. Which is so pathetic. It's a Saturday!! But "work" was actually pretty productive, but the stupid, stupid, stupid, stupid, little, annoying, papercuts just got in the way. & they did hurt, you know ):

I love sitting in Dennis's car & going at 140 km/h. Racing down the Singapore highway & omg the thrill beats everything else. Today Pris & I were like !!!! YAY so funnnn, while Joanne was like, shit, motion sickness -.-

Anyway, today Rev. James Singh (the "FIRE!" guy, remember) totally did what he did best again. He went "WOAH!" out of nowhere & man I got such a huge shock, I think I jumped 3 feet high. Well I think you can picture it, can't you.

It's really amusing, how God can speak to me in so many different ways , even through something like, MSN (:

Father I just want to thank You for all the wonderful people You've placed in my life, thank You for speaking to me & making me see things from a different point of view. You know that I really need You to be with me & I pray that You'd grant me strength to stay strong & more importantly, patience to wait because I know that You have Your perfect timing. Lord I lay all that I am at Your feet & in Jesus' most wonderful name I pray,

Amen.

I'm not about you.

Very amusing.

TGIF!
Really, because Maths has really been driving me up the wall lately:

A: {1, 2, 3, 4} B: {1, 2, 3, 4}
- A is a subset of B (A ⊆ B)
C: {1, 2, 3} D: {1, 2, 3, 4}
- C is both a subset & a proper subset of D (C ⊆ D, C ⊂ D)

Just wondering, that if every set is a subset of itself, then wouldn't:
A ⊆ A,
B ⊆ B,
C ⊆ C , &
D ⊆ D?

& if there was an empty set, E: { }, & it's stated that an empty set is a subset of every set, then wouldn't:
E ⊆ A,
E ⊆ B,
E ⊆ C,
E ⊆ D, &
E ⊆ E?

BUT, if E is an empty set, doesn't it mean that E has no elements? If E has no elements, then how can E be a subset of anything else?

!!!! Damn.

Okay maybe I should give my poor head a break so that aside, we had 3 free periods yesterday & instead of doing our work we ended up playing truth or dare, namely, the Gossip Gang. We wasted away the whole 180 minutes, but it was a truckload of fun, like hahah going to somebody in class & flipping them the finger/slapping them/giving them a hard knock on the head.

Hell yeah I love my 'mates.

I met up with Darren after school, it was pretty nice of him to make his way to the North side, the both of us were like running up & down the mall because that annoying idiot wouldn't stop tickling me & I ran for my dear life almost everytime he came close, so he was like chasing after me & going, come back!!

But anyway. I just so happen to stare down at my shoes while Darren was talking to me because the heart shape was really distracting, my (very long & annoying) fringe sort of fell over my face & Darren suddenly went, OMG Joel why are you dressed as a girl! -.-

Okay you probably didn't get it, Joel used to have really long fringe when he was in like Secondary 3 or something. It was damn hilarious, the way he used to hide it from the DM, said Darren.

He's really a typical Barker boy. I thought Darren looked abit like Terrence, aka Pig, he said.

& no my perspective of him didn't really change after yesterday.

I wonder why I have such limited patience for everything. & I mean everything. I really don't know why I can't wait but things always has to be Now or Never to me. It sucks, seriously, because so many things in life work only with time, like for example the field that I want to work in. Why does wildlife photography require such a hell load of patience. Damn.

Let's hold on to where we are

If I could fall, into the sky

Do you think time, would pass us by?

Please stop making yourself sound like you rule my life. Don't destroy my reputation & make it sound as if I'll stoop to your level. I'm sorry but unlike you, I still have some dignity. I know I haven't really made myself clear, but it should already be obvious to you, I'd really love to believe that you're not that dumb. There's a limit to my patience & I've already tried to be nice. I won't even bother to apologise for what I've said because you're such a pain in the ass.

Okay that's quite enough I guess, I shall stop letting this whole thing bring me down.

English lectures today really became "lectures". Like what a lousy way to start the day.

Maths seriously drove me up the wall, darn I didn't even get a quarter of what the teacher was talking about. I was going around asking people if they understood the lesson just to make sure I wasn't alone. How pathetic.

Mr Wong: So what's the opposite of Optimus Prime?
Warren: Erm intersection? (We were doing Sets you see, & apparently nobody heard the word, 'Optimus' -.-)
Mr Wong: Megatron lah!

Hahah okay so Mr Wong has a sense of humour.

Anyway, halfway while I was doing work I burst out laughing for no whatsoever reason. Dennis totally gave me the what-the-hell-is-wrong-with-you look. So erm well I think you can actually picture just exactly how much Sets are getting on my nerves.

& today during our Physics test Fiona & I were totally sharing answers when we obviously weren't supposed to, & we obviously treated the teacher as if he wasn't around. I was happily munching away on my Super Ring & we made ourselves look really ridiculous when we were using the Left Hand Rule because we were twisting our hand in all directions. Damn the rest of the class that were looking at us like we were out of our minds, Best Friend just makes looking stupid so much fun.

I can't believe my mid-years are like just around the corner. Damn why does time have to fly so fast, it really seems like it was just yesterday I was crying because Karim & Iskandar are going to go separate ways. I think I'd never forgive myself if I screw up.

On a lighter note, I might be meeting Darren tomorrow, idiot says he doesn't mind picking me up, I'm like what the hell you're gonna get lost in my school's area & I won't be able to find you! (Maybe I'd be able to because he probably stands like a head taller than everyone)

Note to self: Do accidentally 'forget' to bring anything that has something to do with Maths, & ignore all of Darren's threats to glue you onto his skateboard.

29 days.

Too late.

I loved you with a violent red,
Now it's turning blue
Planetshakers concert on 10/11th of April (Thursday/Friday), at Expo Max Pavillion, 7.30 PM. It's FOC, first come first serve basis. Anyone interested?

I can't believe myself at times. I really don't know what's wrong with me but I get annoyed so easily these days. The tinest things are enough to make me flip.

The fact that I have SO much to think about really doesn't make things any better. Really.

30 days.

I'm bounce.

But I'm having fun.

Stupid vending machine in the darn school ate my coins today! So upset.

Ahhhh Darren Darren Darren you're so full of shit shit shit.